Fallen

Fallen
Written By: ELZEYE

Something has imprinted her mind, just look at her eyes...
She enters the hallway, with something deeply hidden inside...
The tears of surprise bleed a cold an expressionless cry...
Her face can't deny the words that her beauty described...
But her sadness displayed, is like painting pain on the canvas...
The paintbrush engraves the color stains on the fabric...
I'm refraining from askin' about her situation or status...
Though I can tell inside, she portrays emotions of madness...
What could've happened? She softly wipes her face with a tissue...
Suddenly the nurse expresses the urgency of the issue...
It makes me sick to; think what she will probably sit through...
Emotions are peaked, what more can she possibly live through?
Then sudden screams flash scenes of foreseen troubles...
As both of her knees buckled, I turned to see her stumble…
Her world crumbled, soon to lie in miserable puddles of rubble…
The tears were everlasting, but her cries tumbled and struggled…
Feeling trapped in a bubble, not knowing what I can say or do…
Then it came to, as I peered through the window I knew…
On the operating table I sat lifeless and unable to move…
I could finally construe the situation that has been put into view…
I felt a sinking feeling, making me sick to my stomach…
What was this? Wishing to wake from a nightmare that wasn't …
This is the world I was stuck in; helpless I could do nothing of it…
I guess I'm to pay for all the demons that'd come in…

Falling Down The Rabbit Hole

Falling Down The Rabbit Hole
Written By: ELZEYE

I was born during a rainy season; the world was cold...
How far could I go? My story was told...
It began to unfold; so young, so unknown...
Wanted to accomplish so much before I turned old...
Wanting to stun those who were quick to doubt me...
Always ready to prove that they were nobody without me...
I was without peace, ignorance my mouth speaks...
Always a phrase away from ending up without teeth...
Too scared to stand on my own feet? It may seem...
I was stuck in the most amazing of daydreams...
Full of myself; I heard people saying the same thing...
I swore if I had heard another word I may scream...
I began to spiral down; an impossible recovery...
Couldn't find 'Her' so drugs began to fall in love with me...
Alcohol had smothered me; it was all a new discovery...
Days blurred together to become one long summer's dream...
Yesterdays an tomorrows were all the same; what was this place?...
Holiday, Holiday, Happy Birthday; Teenage crush becomes a First Date...
But mistakes were too much to get me past the first base...
Nothing like the innocence of a first kiss back in first grade...
If I could go back to my birth's date; I'd conjure up another plan...
Teach me to be grateful for what my mother can...
Provide, I'd understand; Fatherless an undermanned...
I feel like Alice in Wonderland...Sometimes I wonder man...

You Thought I Would Fall

You Thought I Would Fall
Writen By: ELZEYE

Yo how can I function? Yo how can I love them?..
When the topic of discussion is so sick an disgustin'...
Damn I'm sick of discussin', disputin', for nothin'...
I refuse to believe, but I'm relieved that I wasn't...
Caught up in the fuss when, you wanted to leave me...
Believe me it was easy, more than what I believe it to be…
You were a disease to me, I'm sure you'd agree with me...
The hurt in my eyes was false but it didn't seem to be...
You didn't believe in me, you called me an asshole...
I'm havin’ a laugh, relax it's all in the past though...
Yo I'm havin' a blast; you’re caught in a black hole...
I did and said what I said; I ain't takin' it back though...
Wasn't angry or mad though; at times I was lovin' it...
You know that inside, I'm just glutton for punishment...
I was findin' the fun in it, but this is the end of it...
I'm endin' this shit, I've finally written my testament...
Up shit's river now cause your vision is blurred...
When the next comes along, I promise to listen to her...
Won't fuck wit'a sister...Get it fuck wit'er sister? (Haha)
Wasn't gonna put you on blast but I guess I just did huh?..
Had no intentions to diss ya, an I may just regret it...
But I ain't gonna edit; now maybe you'll get it...
But I'm almost finished; an as for your critics...
They'll be eatin' my words an swallowin' dicks wit' it...
An you can tell'em I did this, this was my destiny...
This shit's elementary; this isn't the best of me...
You're laid to sleep now, only myself is what's left of me...
You're now a forgotten name that ain't even worth mentioning...
Though still you mention me like I'm at fault for what happened...
Even though really the fact is, you have a nackin' for actin'...
Remembering back when I was lettin you back in...
You never moved past him; try wrappin’ your head around that shit...
But I’ve gone an moved past it; I no longer yearn for you…
I have no concern for you; you had your turn were through…
My soul doesn’t burn for you, this isn’t a blur of truths…
Maybe it’s your turn to givem' somethin’ that burns em too…

What is ****?

What is ****…?
Written by: ElzEye

It’s the…
It’s the euphoric sensations that only music can create…
The reminiscent memories that come to mind if you could just relate…
It’s the sleepless nights waking up to a stiff neck…
The dreams of giving up while you’re jumping from the cliffs edge…
It’s the constant yelling and the many accusations…
The faking of a crooked smile while your heart is actually breaking…
It’s the anxiety attacks when you feel like going insane…
The Edgar Allen Raven and its haunting tapping on the window pain…
It’s the nights I sit alone only just to watch you sleep…
The fact that no other chemistry of emotions could ever be this deep…
It’s the conversations and the laughter over silly things…
The here and after, the whispers holding in my will to scream…
It’s the will to fulfill my dreams but always falling short…
The attention span that you display when we watch my favorite sport…
It’s the confusion when I wonder what the hell we fight for…
The thickness in the air that chokes me when you’re spiteful…
It’s the pain I feel every time I watch you cry…
The overwhelming sensation when I just want to die…
It’s the reading of your mind when all I see are riddles…
The pathetic attempt and failure to meet you in the middle…
It’s the sound of your voice that makes up the soundtrack to my day…
The coming to an end cause I don’t know what more to say…
It’s the special moments that I won’t ever forget…
The fact that I will forever travel this lonely road of regret…
It’s the words I’ve said and without a doubt you know I meant this…
The fact that I will be dead the moment that I end this…

Apocalyptic Symphony

Apocalyptic Symphony
Written By: ElzEye

I occupy myself to fill the vastness of this black void…
A useless factoid like that of paranoid androids…
If only I could destroy worlds with a mass of asteroids…
I’d bring calamity and sound to a halting black noise…
Complete silence; hear it speaking in hollow tongues…
I hear them freaking; watch the sinners follow nuns…
As a final attempt to keep their riches the greedy swallow funds…
I look down upon while I commence the bombers run…
Like crashing napalm suns, their bodies turned to ashes…
Picasso’s Guernica; a beautiful display of morbid madness…
I watched them burn in masses; It only hurts to laugh when…
They scream death; but I have no concern for that shit…
The tragic deaths of billions came at their own hand…
I’m no man just an instrument of war from your homeland…
A martyr if you will, controlled by a rich Presidential old man…
One command an I swear I’ll kill you where your soul stands…

H.E.R.

H.E.R.
Written By: ElzEye

Intensified anticipation amidst a simple conversation...
Her soft voice broadcasting and I'm too stuck to change the station...
An as I stare in amazement at every breath she takes in...
I'm shaken; All at once my sensations cave in...
An though we talked there were many things I did not say…
I just figured revealing them would be a lot to take…
So as I pen this I’m watching, waiting for the clock to break…
Because time has stopped; I have parked my thoughts in caution’s way…
What I want to say should be locked away an clearly forgotten…
Put the pencil away; Awaken from a moment I often get lost in…
Cause’ in my mind she was constant, my mind was exhausted…
But there was always a fine line an I refused to have crossed it…
It feels so strange now that I've had her so close to me...
An can't help but hear every word whenever she goes to speak...
That just goes to show that the past remains an flows so deep...
Maybe one day she'll notice, whenever she dreams or goes to sleep...

If I Could Leave It All Behind

If I Could Leave It All Behind
Written By: Elz-Eye

Like Russian roulette, life's a dangerous game...
I maintain the curse I obtained, for what I gave in exchange...
The more I stain-color my life, the grayer it stays...
I've knelt and I’ve prayed, but still I'm just a stranger in pain...
Under the rain, this dream doesn’t feel right...
It feels like these nightmares are caught up in real life...
I can see through the truths, even in still nights...
They still lie, like a reality that’s been concealed twice...
Do you know what it feels like to feel this pain that is felt?..
To get away from this hell I leave the pain on the shelf…
Right next to my personality, my name, and myself…
And try to forgive me for the mistakes that I’ve dealt…
Just a chance to breathe and release what’s left inside me…
Instead I spill my guts to this bottle of Jack beside me…
Escape at last to where no one else could find me…
Walk away and drink the past behind me…